Handle it is not the issue as much as it looks like you are intentionally being rigid, vindictive, and personal. like the lot that sees smoke from a BBQ and calls the fire department and refuses to see a problem with it. The experience is quite fascinating really. All this anger, curses, and such is worth it? No one is being avenged here. No one is suffering and crying out for retribution. For what exactly is there gain with that mentality and energy?

No I dont hate myself over this. Why? She moved back in with us the following year. Had 2 years of being bffs until she found love and moved across the planet. I even Got invited to her wedding. I have long term data that really invalidates any thing you say because no one involved cared then or now.